Off the Wagon

So, here's the deal. My knees are screwed up. Which I knew before I started running, but this seems to have exacerbated the issue. Which I should've known. But it's worth a try, right? Anyway, I was beyond frustrated this morning as I attempted to run, because the piercing pain that had started on Wednesday morning as I was running came back the minute I went into a jog, and got so bad that I couldn't lift my legs into the next step, so I was kind of moving my foot forward and dragging my knee along with it. I stopped probably a few hundred yards into it, because I couldn't take it anymore, and I was afraid of seriously injuring myself even more. I have this patellar-femoral issue, and I've had it for a while, and apparently it can cause big problems while running. I talked to two physical therapists today, one told me to stop running and not go back (which I don't want to do, I kind of like it, much as I hate to admit that), the other told me to rest, then do a variety of exercises to strengthen and loosen (funny that you have to do both) the muscles around my knee. And told me that even with fancy running shoes, I need supports in my shoes for my arches. I'm going with the second one, and hoping to be back out there running soon. In the meantime, I think I'll still go out in the morning and walk, just to keep myself in the habit of going. Or at least that's what I tell myself now, when I'm not in the comfort of my bed. :)

So I decided to reward myself for all this frustration with a day off from my stringent eating regimen of the past week (except for that Taco Bell run yesterday), and eat it up. Ate a King-Size Snickers for breakfast, then went to a co-worker/ friend's birthday lunch and ate a big meal and three (count 'em, three) brownies AND a piece of strawberry layer cake. And I'm not even to dinner yet. :) There is probably a little part of me that tells me that I will be sorry when I check my body fat percentage in the morning, but there's a much, much larger part that says "I don't care." Every once in a while, I should be able to have a day off! And I don't think it means that I'll stop eating healthy the other days, and I hope to keep exercising, but I like that I am full of chocolate right now. :) I'm a little chocolate gnome. :) Ok, I'd be a freakishly tall gnome, who am I kidding? Although, I love that Travelocity gnome on the commercials, maybe I'll blog about that someday, I have my reasons...in the meantime, just know that I am off the wagon, just for today, maybe this weekend. Sigh. I like it on the ground, the wagon's a bit of a rough ride, I must say...